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The Transformative Power of Letting Go and Remembering We are Life-

We are bodies, creatures. To be human, alive, we are bodies. WE ARE CREATURES NOT CREATORS. We do NOT create life. Life creates US. When we choose life IN OUR BODIES we become whole. There is no 'mind' without a body.

Early in my work as a clinical nutritionist, 45+ years ago, I became aware that some of my clients had difficulty selecting and eating foods that were good for them. When these clients were asked to 'listen to their body' they did not understand. They could not tell if the food they were eating made them feel good or bad. They could not tell if they needed more sleep or exercise. They did not know if or when they were hungry or thirsty or what foods might satisfy their hunger, if they were able to recognize they were hungry.

Each person has the ability to know what is right for him or herself. My intent is to educate (v.-educare-to draw forth [inner knowing]) the natural wisdom of the client. I make available to the client knowledge that the client already has. It is within ourselves, our BODIES (not our minds), we find the information we need to take care of ourselves.

The more out-of-touch one is with the messages of his or her own body, the greater their dependency on the authority of others and the less able they are to take care of themselves. Such persons do not know what they really want, do not believe they can know what is best for them and do not believe that if they knew they could get what they want and need.

In 1983 I began working with adult and child victims of physical and sexual abuse. All victims exhibited the same lack of awareness and lack of ability to respond to the body's messages that I had seen in some of my clients. They could not ask for, or even know, what they wanted and needed and they were unable to refuse what they did not want.

This unexpected involvement with abuse victims recalled earlier experiences I had had in 1974 working with Peter H.C. Mutke, M.D., Psychosomatic Medicine, and Barry Goodfield, Ph.D. Of many unusual cases I was able to observe, two stand out as indicative of the probable causes of injury and the direction I feel healing must take.

During a session of hypnotic recall, a lawyer in his late 30's was put before a thermography machine (liquid nitrogen imaging). While remembering a beating he received from his father at 9 months of age heat patterns appeared and we were able to see hand prints clearly on the client's body. I believe memory is more than in the mind. Clinical evidence suggests it is concurrently stored in the body. The memory of the beating had been stored within his cells.

The second case involved a individual born with a club foot. At age 40 an operation was performed to correct the condition. The foot continued to cause pain and disability. Using thermography the foot's temperature was found to be significantly cooler than the rest of the body and the other foot. No medical cause could be found to account for this discrepancy. When the man was instructed to "love" his foot, to forgive the foot for the pain it had caused him, to incorporate it into his thought in a positive way using focused attention, the foot healed and the temperature normalized without further complication.

An abused or injured person "leaves" his body where the memory/feeling is located. This removal of one's consciousness is done automatically whether the original incident of abuse was intentional or unintentional. This separation occurs to relieve the pain. Psychology calls this disassociation. The mind and body must be reunited. If the memory continues to contain the original feelings of fear, anger and/or pain it becomes difficult or impossible for reunification to occur.

We do not cause ourselves to be abused (whatever some may say) but are responsible for continuing to feel associated rage, self-pity, anger, fear and pain. We often believe that remembering and discussing our victimization or screaming or crying or expressing our anger, pain, fear and rage will get rid of this awful chemistry. It has been my experience that until clients willingly forgive and forget, old fear, anger and pain reflect into current events. Therapy aimed at expressing or feeling your pain, reliving the incident, simply further imbeds and petrifies the memory.

Most of us have not been taught that we have the ability to choose our feelings. Some will "bury" past negative incidents or feelings. Others will express over and over their discomfort and victimization. Family members, friends or society may encourage the burial of incidents/feelings because the feelings are too frightening to be expressed. Others continually express their sorrow and pain, endlessly to everyone and join groups or visit therapists who encourage them to do so. In some families, all members will bury their feelings "successfully" until one member becomes the "actor" for the group. Repetition of events will continue to occur until associated feelings are changed by free choice. I did not say until feelings are expressed.

If a child has been raised in a critical, abusive or neglected environment by parents who see the world in a negative, frightening or hopeless way the child will feel that that is the way of the world and discount positive experiences as exceptions to be overlooked. Likewise the loved and nurtured child sees negative experiences as unusual occurrences quickly passing.

It is clear that the actions and attitudes of parents, other family members and school personnel towards the child influence the way the child will perceive him or herself and the world. However, no matter what our original heredity or environment, we can consciously alter that conditioning.

There are no perfect parents, perfect societies, perfect schools, bosses or jobs. It is important to encourage good parenting and societal values but even our best attempts will at times cause offense to our children. It is necessary that all of us, adults and children alike, learn the true value of forgiveness -- the physical, cellular, forgetting of the envy, greed, anger, fear and pain associated with the past and the freedom of living a life from within.

The value of forgiveness is not in its power to grant freedom to the offender but in its power to give wholeness to the victim. Forgiveness does not mean the offender is not brought to account, though they may or may not be, but that the victim is fully restored to a state of mind and body that is without wound or scar.

Victims do not deserve to be victims but the damage can not be repaired by the offender, nor is it repaired by punishment of the offender. The victim is healed, made free, by his or her willing removal of the feelings associated with the victimization. This change of feeling may be helped by the action of others but the work of change must be done by the victim.

One stops being a victim by refusing (rejecting, deleting) the feelings of being a victim and allowing healing to begin.

We understand the need to change our feelings of victimization and some persons try to over come these feelings by becoming victimizers. It appears that "getting the other guy" is better than "being gotten", but appearances are deceiving. This technique does not work because the victim's core feelings have not been changed.

The mammalian or animal "way" is and has always been "power over others". The higher way is power within. When a person’s conceptual reality is shifted to a knowledge of having this power within, personal peace will be attained.

Only when one is at peace with oneself is peace with others possible.

When we discover that we have personal choice in our feelings and begin to use this free will, no situation, however harmful, fearful or painful, past, present or future can have any lasting effect on our being. This ability has been discovered by every healthy, happy survivor of any great disaster or tragedy. 

A real survivor is one who can walk through the fire and not be burned. They retain no physical/chemical memory of the incident. The mind is free, the body memory unmarked. This may only be achieved by forgiveness. The prisoner in the most terrifying and abusive prison in this world is free if he completely rejects his imprisonment, if he refuses to see his captors as captors, if he refuses the anger and hatred, and refuses to see himself as victim. 

Focus attention within your body and mind. Use any relaxation technique you like. You may sit or lie down. When you are fully relaxed, no discernible tension in any muscle, allow your mind to drift over historical (your own) events. Search for feelings associated with past situations you assume to have a negative influence on your current life. Such feelings could include being unwanted, being neglected or abused INTENTIONALLY OR UNINTENTIONALLY, accidents, illness or surgery, difficulties during puberty, ill-matched relationships or any other incidences of perceived victimization bringing envy, anger, fear, pain or sorrow; anything up until the present moment. 

Do not focus on the incidences, focus on the chemistry, the feelings.

Tell your body "I don't want this feeling anymore." Tell your body you are ready to be free. Find the feelings that filter your view of reality. You could currently have a feeling you would rather not have that was created by a letter, phone call or meeting within the past day or week or by remembering an occurrence or relationship from many years ago. Repeat "I don't want this feeling anymore. Each time you experience any of these negative feelings throughout the next days, weeks and months, repeat again "I truly don't want this feeling anymore." Allowing your body permission to fully and freely FORGET frees the life within you.

In less time than you imagine, the feelings you no longer want will be gone, for ever, if you meant what you said (silently or aloud). Your body does the work, you do the choosing.

When I first became aware of this wonderful gift I spent several weeks offering my 'junk'. There was so much to be rid of. I believe most of us need to do one comprehensive past history forgiveness to clear out a lifetime of junk feelings (about as profitable as junk bonds to carry around and like junk bonds others pay the price) and then do daily forgiving to keep us on track.

PAST EXAMPLE: A thirty-five year old woman with chronic headaches from childhood remembers her mother trying to stop her crying when she was about 18 months old by choking her. CONCLUSION- If I ask for what I want I might die. DECISION- I will get a headache to remind myself to not want and not ask. It was a great survival mechanism for the infant but lousy for the adult.

Day and night she consciously rejected, over and over again, the old feelings (told her body she didn't want that feeling anymore) and began to experience and allow the feelings of being loved, nurtured, protected and safe. Shortly the cell memory was deleted and the new feelings became strong as the old disappeared. Her headaches permanently disappeared. In addition she found it possible to know and to ask for what she wanted.

CURRENT TIME EXAMPLE: A client received a phone call informing her of a deadline she had missed. Her immediate feeling was fear and helplessness. She immediately rejected the feeling, "I don't want this feeling" and not only was she free from the negative emotions, she was able to find a way to achieve the desired outcome.

In present time surrendering feelings always changes actions. You want a cigarette. You tell your body 'I don't want this feeling anymore'. You are sincere. To the extent possible you don't smoke the cigarette. You are not saying you don't want the cigarette, this would not be true, but are saying you don't want the feeling of wanting a cigarette. I have personally seen this completely remove the desire for a cigarette within three days and this state remained permanently. Without the feeling the action will not occur. Whatever the feelings promoting behaviors against self or others they can be completely and permanently removed.

Cellular changes related to forgiveness may take days, weeks, or even months. Don't stop. Do not give up. Keep rejecting the old and allowing the new. During this time your body is repatterning your cell memory to fit your new life. Soon you will begin to see things differently and find your life changing in wonderful ways.

This process is not based on mental, intellectual ability. You do not and should not tell your body how you want to feel. You need only tell your body how you do not want to feel. As you become adept you will find yourself able to recognize and surrender feelings, by choice, at will. Only what you decide about how you FEEL counts. Once your body realizes you have the authority to choose the feeling, and that positive feelings feel better than envy, pride, hatred, anger, greed, lust, fear and pain, it will quickly respond.

We are what we believe/feel ourselves to be. For most, actions spring from feelings. Our current beliefs and actions are drawn from what we believed/felt to be true in our past, a compilation of hereditary and environmental input. The cells of the body are not accurate in their memory or understanding but they are faithful in generating expected chemistry. They register things like abandonment, life threat, abuse, REAL AND IMAGINED, INTENTIONAL AND UNINTENTIONAL, as personal and eternal. We expect these feelings; they are familiar to us; they and situations associated with these feelings reappear with frequency in our lives. From our past we bring forth 'evil', hereditary and personal.

Initially our parental and cultural beliefs/feelings/expectations are the seeming appearances in our lives. Later we continue to reaffirm those same beliefs/feelings/expectations and carry on the cell memories. Memory is retained as cell-memory chemistry (feeling) by consistent re-experiencing of the feeling. This is the limitation of the material self.

When we choose to change our feelings we allow our body to remake the past, present and future. The greater our commitment to choosing feelings of love, joy, peace, mercy, kindness and justice and rejecting the rest, the sooner these become our new personal truth. Personal truth is made up of the beliefs and associated feelings which have total control over the way in which we see the world. Where our old beliefs and feelings were affirmed by and in our environment (the without in), our new 'chosen' beliefs will soon out-picture in our environment (the within out). 

We are called to substitute beauty for ashes, joy for mourning and praise for despair. Where there was abandonment, support and comfort. Where there was abuse, gentleness and understanding. Where there was fear, feelings of safety and love. Where there was poverty, riches. Where there was ugliness let your eyes be opened to beauty. DO THIS FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS. To substitute means to replace one for another. One is removed; the other is added. The situation has not changed but the feelings have changed and outward change will follow as the dawn follows the night.


Thoughts, the things you think about and the way you think about things, create feelings as much or more than actual events. The goal is to renew the mind, to empty the self and allow in new, higher, thoughts and feelings. Feelings generate physical chemistry. Body chemistry is different in people who are happy, sad, fearful, depressed or anxious.

For real WHOLENESS, real healing, only FREE WILL CHOICE. We must choose our bodies, to connect to life/regeneration.

Deuteronomy 30:19 I call heaven and Earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.


Life is not well. The Earth is not well. In 2020 DEAD things made by HUMANS out-weighed all life on Earth. We are not well. We have poisoned our air and soil and water with MANMADE CHEMICALS and so we continue to poison ourselves. Drugs legal and illegal, foods processed and preserved to survive years on a shelf (dead), the TRILLION dollar so called ‘Health Care System’ may keep us alive but we are not WELL, we are not WHOLE.

It seems our current idea of 'freedom' is the freedom to destroy life and somehow we think we are not a part of that destruction. We are encouraged to be angry, to get mad, to 'decide' who and what we are. Silly children. You are life. You were created by life. You are designed to express your wholeness as is, not as you would like to be.

Life's PLAN is for LIFE well lived. Stuff happens. Illness, injury, accident, trauma, DAMAGE. We survive but we don’t ever fully recover. We learn to slow our degeneration if we are blessed but regeneration seems out of our reach. Bodies are designed to heal.

Our bodies are regulated by our UNCONSCIOUS autonomic nervous system (ANS) A large part of the ANS is our vagus nerves, one on each side of our bodies. These nerves are the longest nerves in the human body regulating organs and glands, heart rate, breathing, digestion, urination, defecation, ejaculation.

The Sympathetic alerts to danger (fight/flight/freeze). It stimulates the hypothalamus and increases cortisol and other stress hormones to heighten alertness and the ability to ‘engage’ in defensive actions.

The Parasympathetic is designed to be our place of rest and regeneration. It is often called
rest/digest/heal. ONLY in this state can deep healing occur. The parasympathetic may only be our home if we are ready to fully love ourselves AS IS and understand that we, through that love as is extend and love all LIFE, all living things from the smallest virus or fungus to the largest whale or elephant. LIFE IS ONE.

When in the Sympathetic, separated from our wholeness our bodies and brains, we are armored. Our bodies are triggered to express the 'integrated stress response' (ISR) Our body is inflamed. Our brain is inflamed. When we stay in this state too long we may become locked in armor of our own making. This state is where we find all of the degenerative diseases as well as autoimmune diseases and impaired healing from both injury and illness of body and mind.

Our vision is impaired seeing threats, not seeing safety. Our brains see threats where no
threats exist. Our ears hear only danger not joy, not peace, not safety, not LOVE.

Arteries are contracted, blood flow is impaired, breathing is difficult, heart rate is elevated,
blood pressure is elevated. We may be ok if this is a brief period of time and time passes before we find ourselves here again.

Each time we journey deeply into the Sympathetic we encode memories of threat, real or imagined, within our cells. Over time these memories with associated feelings (pain, sorrow, grief, fear, despair, betrayal, anger, rage, loss, abandonment) may shift us from whole humans, connected to our bodies and all other life, living from the Parasympathetic, resting in rest, to frightened animals, spending hours or days in Sympathetic fight/flight/freeze, never safe.

Rapidly or slowly, over time, we experience loss of our humanity, barren, abandoned, hopeless, helpless. No one and nowhere is safe. There is no rest. We have become dis-embodied, cut off from our true self IN OUR BODIES connected to all LIFE.

We begin to believe in the god of 'man', of the power of technology, with all of its destruction, destitution, killing life, killing ourselves. We (yes we, no one else) destroy the air and water and land. We believe in our 'inventions' though they, each and every one, take us further from truth, hardening our hearts, ravaging our bodies and destroying our minds.

And in that place there is no healing, no hope, no wellness and no wholeness. It cannot be fixed by medications nor supplements nor diet nor exercise. Breathing, yoga, meditation, the latest guru NONE will bring us WHAT WE ALREADY ARE AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN. We are creatures, bodies, bits of life.

We are encased in ‘protective’ armor, heavier by the day. Unable to feel joy. Unable to know restoration, regeneration, DEEP sleep, WHOLENESS.

We follow the false gods of power, money, success, FAKE beauty. We worship DEAD THINGS. We eat dead food. We take dead drugs. We buy and hoard dead things. There is no joy in them, no LIFE. We are told our distress is that we do not have enough _______(fill in the blank) and if we pay, follow the rules, listen to the lies, we will finally get what we need.


The memories/feelings that haunt us, that keep us from being comfortable in our bodies, from being whole are to be found in cell tissue memories. (Download pdf on cell tissue memory)

 Disembodied humans feed our pain and fear with so called news and so called science bleeding us, destroying us and asking us to pay for their cure, their solution to our pain.

So we have bodies, we are bodies, creatures. Bodies (NOT YOUR BRAIN) collect memories, some of which associate with danger, fear, grief, loss and pain which turn on the sympathetic and thereby the ISR, Integrated Stress Response. This causes us to withdraw from our bodies leaving us vulnerable to more danger, fear and pain. Not only does this lead to 'our worst fears' it allows others to rule over us, to tell us what is right for us, to ENSLAVE us to their code or product or belief.


From Wendell Berry's "What are people for?"



The grace that is the health of creatures can only be held in common.

In healing the scattered members come together.

In health the flesh is graced, the holy enters the world.


The task of healing is to respect oneself as a creature, no more

and no less.

A creature is not a creator, and cannot be. There is only one

Creation, and we are its members.

To be creative is only to have health: to keep oneself fully alive

in the Creation, to keep the Creation fully alive in oneself, to see

the Creation anew, to welcome one's part in it anew.

The most creative works are all strategies of this health.

Works of pride, by self-called creators, with their premium on

originality, reduce the Creation to novelty-the faint surprises

of minds incapable of wonder.

Pursuing originality, the would-be creator works alone. In loneliness

one assumes a responsibility for oneself that one cannot


Novelty is a new kind of loneliness.

When you reunite with your body-self, you remember you are creature not creator. When cell tissue memories are cleared you will still have the memories but NOT the fear/anger/pain filled FEELINGS. It is the feeling/chemical portion of memory that keeps us in the sympathetic and unable to fully live, separating ourselves from our bodies and all life. We are in bodies, we are connected to all life in and through our bodies. ONLY in our bodies do we connect, do we realize, feel, know ALL LIFE, microbes, plants, animals, all living things. You will be whole, be happy, experience joy. YOU WILL BE CONNECTED, HOME.

Parasympathetic means Resting in Rest. Faith not fear. Life not death. Love not hate.

Many have lost their ability to ‘rest in rest’ are even trained or traumatized as children to deny/ignore their body, their feelings, their 'self'. When out of body we are ruled by others. We believe the lies. We buy the 'latest thing' to make us happy and find we have stuff but no joy. We find ourselves living in fear, in a chronic state of fight/flight/freeze. We do not belong there. It is NOT our destiny. Choose LIFE. All that you are and all that you need, YOU ARE. Go in, find your whole, our whole, life's whole. Free, no charge, without cost, you are WHOLE and connected to ALL LIFE. Choose LIFE.

 People, news, ads selling false solutions for our fears, political parties, anything that enhances your fears, these are not your allies. Anything that causes new cell memories relating to fear, sorrow, pain, these are to be rejected, always REJECTED.

Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears. -- Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

We are easy to trigger because we carry old wounds. Even in persons with little life trauma, as we age we spend more time in the Sympathetic. We have seen more of life and become less trusting, more cynical. Researchers actually tested this in seniors. They found the Parasympathetic active (no damage) but not engaged. We have armored, unconsciously. It hastens our bad decisions, ill health, and our decline to early death. (1,2,3)

How do we know all this? There is a way to know where your body resides, in the Parasympathetic or the Sympathetic. When we are resting in rest (Parasympathetic) our heart rate variability (HRV) increases. The greater our stress (Sympathetic fight/flight/freeze) the lower our heart rate variability.

There are now apps and bands that can monitor your HRV day and night. Higher HRV means longer telomeres, better sleep, better digestion, lower total body inflammation, enhanced healing and regeneration, stronger immunity to disease and freedom from autoimmunity. This is the science to prove that life, connectedness, joy, peace and love are our destiny, our home. We get there by letting go of all that is not LIFE.

Higher HRV is associated with fewer viral infections of all types. Even persons with herpes simplex will have fewer or NO outbreaks if HRV is high. (4,5,3,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20)

Lower HRV is associated with the worst outcomes and highest rates of ALL CAUSE mortality. HRV is important because it signifies residence in your ANS, whether fight/flight/freeze or rest/digest. I haven’t put in all the references because there are too many, thousands. Whatever your health issue the lower your HRV the less likely you will recover and the sooner you will die.

Low HRV signifies an abandonment of the body, a withdrawal from life.

In an interesting study on loneliness, aging, HRV (controlled by ANS fight/flight/freeze or resting in rest), and telomeres it was HRV that determined outcome, not age, telomeres or loneliness. When HRV improves telomeres lengthen and chromosomes repair. (3)

HRV, heart rate variability means variability between every beat, a DANCING HEART. Only the unhappy, stressed, angry or hurt heart beats a 'regular' beat.

So how did we get here and how do we recover? Below proves the science but is NOT the answer. Choose life. Let all that does not reflect life go. Choose living food, living/loving people, living air, water, soil, plants, animals. Reject dead things, dead ideas, false promises, the lie that your joy comes from without. THINGS are DEAD. Life is living. Life is within you and within all living things. Do not seek joy in DEAD THINGS. Joy will only be found in the living. DANCE WITH ME.

PLOS ONE | 1 May 2013 | Volume 8 | Issue 5 | e62817

Relaxation Response Induces Temporal Transcriptome Changes in Energy Metabolism, Insulin Secretion and Inflammatory Pathways
Manoj K. Bhasin1,4,5., Jeffery A. Dusek6., Bei-Hung Chang7,8., Marie G. Joseph5 , John W.
Denninger1,2, Gregory L. Fricchione1,2, Herbert Benson1,3" , Towia A. Libermann1,4,5 " Boston University School of Public Health, Boston, Massachusetts, United States of America


The relaxation response (RR) is the counterpart of the stress response. Millennia-old practices
evoking the RR include meditation, yoga and repetitive prayer. Although RR elicitation is an
effective therapeutic intervention that counteracts the adverse clinical effects of stress in
disorders including hypertension, anxiety, insomnia and aging, the underlying molecular mechanisms that explain these clinical benefits remain undetermined. To assess rapid time-dependent (temporal) genomic changes during one session of RR practice among healthy practitioners with years of RR practice and also in novices before and after 8 weeks of RR training, we measured the transcriptome in peripheral blood prior to, immediately after, and 15 minutes after listening to an RR-eliciting or a health education CD. Both short-term and long-term practitioners evoked significant temporal gene expression changes with greater significance in the latter as compared to novices. RR practice enhanced expression of genes associated with energy metabolism, mitochondrial function, insulin secretion and telomere maintenance, and reduced expression of genes linked to inflammatory response and stress-related pathways. Interactive network analyses of RR- affected pathways identified mitochondrial ATP synthase and insulin (INS) as top upregulated critical molecules (focus hubs) and NF-kB pathway genes as top down regulated focus hubs. Our results for the first time indicate that RR elicitation, particularly after long-term practice, may evoke its downstream health benefits by improving mitochondrial energy production and utilization and thus promoting mitochondrial resiliency through upregulation of ATPase and insulin function.
Mitochondrial resiliency might also be promoted by RR-induced downregulation of NF-kBassociated upstream and downstream targets that mitigates stress.
Citation: Bhasin MK, Dusek JA, Chang B-H, Joseph MG, Denninger JW, et al. (2013) Relaxation Response Induces Temporal Transcriptome Changes in Energy Metabolism, Insulin Secretion and Inflammatory Pathways. PLoS ONE 8(5): e62817. doi:10.1371/journal.pone.0062817 Editor: Yidong Bai,
University of Texas Health Science Center at San Antonio, United States of America Received October 9, 2012; Accepted March 26, 2013; Published May 1, 2013 Copyright: 2013 Bhasin et al.
Introduction The relaxation response (RR) is a physiological and psychological state opposite to the stress or fight-or-flight response [1,2,3]. Results from rigorous research studies indicate the ability of various mind-body interventions to reduce chronic stress and enhance wellness through induction of the RR [1,4]. Several studies also reported that elicitation of the RR is an effective therapeutic intervention to counteract the adverse clinical effects of stress in disorders that include: hypertension [5]; anxiety [6,7]; insomnia [8,9]; diabetes [10]; rheumatoid arthritis [11]; and aging [12,13]. The RR is elicited when an individual focuses on a word, sound, phrase, repetitive prayer, or movement, and disregards everyday thoughts [2]. These two steps break the train of everyday thinking. Millennia-old mind-body approaches that elicit the RR include: various forms of meditation (e.g., mindfulness meditation and transcendental meditation); different practices of yoga (e.g., Vipassana and Kundalini); Tai Chi; Qi Gong; progressive muscle relaxation; biofeedback; and breathing exercises [14]. Elicitation of the RR is associated with coordinated biochemical changes, characterized by decreased oxygen consumption [15], carbon dioxide elimination, blood pressure, heart and respiratory rate [16,17], and norepinephrine responsivity [18], as well as increased heart rate variability [18,19], and alterations in cortical and subcortical brain regions [20,21]

Many recognize ‘cellular memory’ as a cause of distress and disease but few know what to do about it.

A news report or advertisement or political ad or yoga pose or a loud noise may cause us great
distress. We are overwhelmed by feelings of dread/anxiety/fear/despair/pain or perhaps no feeling at all, hopelessness and depression. The outside has reminded our inside of
trauma/illness/injury/pain. Cell memory has been awakened from behind the armor.

We hold a life’s worth of USELESS memories within. Useless? Absolutely. Negative feelings whatever the cause have no value, not in the past, not in the present and not in the future. They paralyze us, shift us into the danger zone and prevent joy, peace, love, wholeness. Those old trapped, encased feelings, rob us of LIFE itself.

When a memory is released by something inside or outside imagine with me the memory/feeling is RUST. As our armor is penetrated by events the memories my come with all the original intensity of feeling IN OUR BODIES. Like an old abandoned well the water flows, dark with rust.

Repeat after me:
“Dear body I don’t want this feeling anymore. These memory/feelings provide no useful information nor do they help me in my life in any way. We (my body and my conscious self) do not need this feeling. It does not help us, protect us, heal us. It keeps us forever trapped in the past, unable to be present every moment of every day."

It does not matter why you have the feeling. It does not matter ‘who’ or ‘when’ or ‘what’.

This matters, you have free will and you, consciously, can choose to hold on or let it go. To
permanently change our cells (plasticity and epigenetics) the ‘letting it go’ must be a conscious
choice. We are free to choose.

Bodies hold memory/trauma as a means of ‘protection’. What we feel as trauma may be broadly
described as any situation leading to cell tissue memory resulting in feelings of injury/abuse.
This may include traumatic birth, injury, criminal assault, war, famine, illness, accident, even
elective surgeries. Bodies don’t like being cut open, ever.

Multiple traumas (as ‘felt’ by your ANS) over time result in armoring.

ar·mor /ˈärmər/ verb
gerund or present participle: armoring
provide (someone) with emotional, social, or other defenses. "the knowledge armored him
against her"

The process, armoring, holding memory of harm, occurs in the SUBCONSCIOUS, the primal, reptilian, animal/mammalian nervous system regulated by the vagus nerve. Armoring retains the worst case scenario in our CELLS. Not a good thing. Cell memory may be held within any type of cell. Cells holding trauma are not healthy cells. They cannot breathe (metaphorically and actually). They cannot fully regenerate. Their telomeres are shortened and chromosomes are left open to damage (epigenetic change).(21,22,3,23,24)

Current experts suggest we can heal from cell memory by therapy, music, yoga, heart sounds, deep massage, hypnotherapy, and ENDLESS other therapies, many costing thousands of dollars.

TRUTH: We can’t ‘heal’ anything. We have been given free will and CHOICE. Resting in rest, letting go of 'curses and cursing' accepting your body, your life, all of it, as is, as a blessing, heals.

Deuteronomy 30:19-20 This day I call heaven and Earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live. And that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

We become whole because we choose life. Life is in your body. We choose the positive not the negative. We choose to love our BODIES (as is, now). We reject anxiety, fear, pain, JUDGEMENT, old RUST. We reject the idea we must live in fear, without hope. There is wholeness. There is actual, real healing. You choose.

tVNS (transcutaneous vagus nerve stimulation) is an effective way to move us into our
parasympathetic nervous system, rest/digest/heal. Porges (The Polyvagal Theory) believes it the balance of parasympathetic and sympathetic that makes us human, gives us our humanity. When we carry damaging cell tissue memories we land in the sympathetic nervous system, fight/flight/freeze, armored to the hilt (completely).

So we have life, fullness, joy, peace, love, healing, wholeness. And we have death, separation,
always prepared for war, for disease, for injury, even considering death as a way out of the pain.

tVNS is the easiest way to experience being in rest/digest/heal but you won’t stay there unless you are willing to choose LIFE. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”.

When cell memories are released using tVNS (or any other method stimulating the vagus nerve) you may experience FEELINGS of fear, pain, hopelessness, despair released from cell memories. “I don’t want this feeling/these feelings anymore”

Your body has been waiting for your choice, for your CONSCIOUS permission to let go and heal. When the memories come, let them go. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”

Old memories of injury serve no useful purpose. These memories are RUST. Analyzing them, trying to ‘understand’ them, giving them power/attention of any kind, making them important IN ANY WAY in your life keeps you from LIFE.

Therapy which focuses on feeling only further convinces your Sympathetic to hold on for dear
life but ends up bringing you closer to death. Be it grief or sorrow, loss, betrayal, a broken heart, a broken body, a broken mind ALL WILL HEAL. Let it go, the RUST.

Weird statement but absolutely true- Forgive and forget. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”
Welcome to LIFE.

RUST, trapped in armor in your ANS continuing to wait for your conscious decision to let it go. “I don’t want this feeling anymore” Say it. Mean it. Repeat it. Your ANS will listen and obey. IT DOES NOT TAKE YEARS. It takes literally hours/days, not more than a few, to fully let go of all that RUST.

Be present in your own life, now. LIVE LIFE NOW, not in the past.

...From a woman who recognizes cell memory but bought into the need to analyze, look, touch and feel- How to Heal Cellular Memory- I've invested years untangling painfully conscious memories, acknowledging, re-experiencing, and reshaping them through talk therapy, shamanic healing, storytelling, meditation, and prayer. Now, it seems I need to unlock cellular memories. So how does one go about that?...

There is no purpose in ‘untangling’. It truly is just that simple, let it go. “I don’t want this
feeling any more”. Do NOT focus on the memory/feeling, let it go. Most certainly don’t enshrine it in a journal. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”

We cannot 'heal ourselves'. We don’t need healing. When we give up the rust the body
is whole. When we give up the pain, the fear, the sorrow, the anger, the despair, we are whole. It just happens. Maybe not overnight but not long, hours, days, no longer. We are naturally whole. We become damaged and then ‘believe in the damage’ instead of ‘believing in wholeness’. Your memories lie.

Do NOT focus on the memory/feeling, let it go. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”

No sorting. If it, the feeling/memory is keeping you in fight/flight/freeze, despair, depression,
inflammation, pain, IT GOES. “I don’t want this feeling anymore.”

More than 30 years ago I learned from the writings of a very wise man that feelings,
desires, anything that separates us from wholeness, if we just ask they will be removed. Your body will obey. Your body holds your anger, pain, trauma, fear, to 'protect you'. But that action take your light, your life, your joy, your love. It separates you and your body and damages your connection with all life.

Rejoin the dance. It is your destiny, It is your wholeness. It is your joy.

Do NOT explore, enhance, journal, analyze, theorize, chant, primal scream, or dance your feelings away. They won’t stay gone. These cell memories are RUST in your pipes. RUST. No redeeming value of any kind. RUST IS THE PROBLEM. Allow the water of life within you to flow. Turn on the spigot. Clean out the rust. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”.

Let it go. “I don’t want this feeling anymore” It does not take years but just minutes, hours and days to flush out a lifetime of fear (RUST). Choose LIFE. “I don’t want this feeling anymore”

Just 3 days to let it go, change your miRNA, rejoin the dance. Choose life. Listen to your body.

To help you on your journey please download and read Rerooting: A Landmark Map to the Wild Soul by Courtney Chandrea

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